a love letter to my sweet abel.

you are 21 months old, and let me just say, I seriously laugh when counting in months at this point. when people tell me their baby is 23 months, I'm like... so he's almost two? I get it, I get it... no one wants their tiny to grow up. it's just that, I have to go back and count through the months every single time, and I'd really rather just say, he's one and a half, or he will be two in January... two?! TWO?! and in place of all of that, you staying teeny forever would have been just as fine with me, because life with you is flying by too fast. 

you're the greatest around. sunshine on the cloudiest day. you've got a mouth full of teeth, that you'd never let us brush if it were up to you, your hair is coming in so nicely, no weird lengths or missing patches... I guess losing every last strand is paying off! you suddenly seem so tall and heavy, it makes me wonder how in the world i had been carrying all 23 pounds of you around with a big pregnant belly too. you love your sister. holding her, kissing her & snuggling next to her quickly became part of your daily routine. baby, you call her, in the sweetest, softest, high pitched coo I've heard, and it still melts me by the 56,789th time in the day. along with baby, you've over night found your voice & developed a vocabulary. this includes, baby, ball, bird, book, pumpkin, up, down, get down, hi, hat, hot, bye, bye-bye, cookie, cup, daddy, doggie, moon, passy(with out the s's) out, tent, spoon, baba(mama) and so many others that I can't remember right now. other people may not call these "words" because you mostly just say the beginning and sometimes end of them, but we as your parents, know exactly what you're telling us & know that full on convos are just around the bend. I for one, can't wait. I love the sweet sound of your voice and every thing you have to say!

shaking your head no is something you've done for a while, but now you actually mean it and I love that. you are not shy about letting us know when you don't want to do something. this week though, I taught you to nod when the answer is yes. you sort of just clunk your head down in front one strong time and that's that, okay. you're also not shy about letting us know when you're un happy... it's not your most adorable quality, but then again is anyone's upset/angry state their best self? I think not. we as adults (or at least the mature ones) do not try hitting or kicking(the latest) to let others know our unhappiness, but a couple more time outs and you just might understand that too.

we're convinced you're ready to potty train. you have been for a month or more now, but every day it's more obvious. so we will start down that road next week... or soonish... next week, no, soonish! (advice from those who've already been down this road, welcomed!)

you are officially jumping, one leg at a time of course, putting your whole body behind it and bending down low to get a real good spring behind you. it's jumping to you, to me it's plain adorable. 

you love to run, and always. even when you come to our room in the middle of the night, I hear your feet hit the floor and then one of my favorite sounds, thud thud thud, running across the hall, usually accompanied by a small fuss or cry because, how dare we leave you in there alone?!

adventurous and daring as you may be, you still love to snuggle and you still love your mama like no other. I'm so thankful for you. you're sweet & gentle, your quiet and noisy, you give hugs and kisses on demand, and are sensitive to others feelings and your environment. you can sense when things are weird in a room and you yell out if it makes you feel uneasy. when dad hugs me, sometimes it worries you that he's harming me and you point to us and yell, so we explain to you that we are each other's, that it's okay for us to hug and then invite you in for a family hug and you love that. grammy taught you to flirt with your eyes, batting your looooong thick lashes and looking up, MELT. you also have the cutest sweet, shy smile when you're in front of a crowd. your whole face smiles but you don't show your teeth.. cutie. the thrill of almost being pummeled by a dog running high speed is right up your alley, I can't count the number of videos I have of you, neck veins bulging, belly laughing as harvey or lucy the dog run RIGHT by you after a ball. this, along with countless other somewhat dangerous/thrilling things are so much fun to you & you laugh and laugh. your laugh could be my life's soundtrack on repeat!

I love you abel. so much it physically aches in my heart how much! I could squeeze you too tightly on any given day, and break out in song... but I won't, especially not with a group. singing in unison might be your very least favorite thing in the world (second to bedtime) and is a sure way to make you cry hard, real tears with a long recovery time afterwards. (note to all when his second birthday does arrive)

thanks for being you. for running to get me anytime the heat kicks on, so we can stand on the heater vent together, for loving pumpkins more than anyone i know, for showing me the world through new eyes, daily. being a mother, your mother, is where I found myself. where I no longer looked for outside praise or attention. it's my sweet spot, my calling. and YOU are the reason. I love you!



osborn farm + check marks on our fall bucket list

over the weekend we got our pumpkin on. if you've been around here for a minute or two you may remember us kicking off fall with osborn farm the past couple of years ( HERE & HERE ) . we continued that tradition this year & i'm so glad we did. i am pretty sure that abel thought he had died and gone to Heaven seeing THAT many pumpkins in one place, in one day... boy loves his pumpkin & i love that about him. the farm is such a cute place... farmer's market, pumpkin patch, petting zoo, hayrides... you had me at pumpkin, but all these things combined are absolutely a win in my book.
 i'm so happy that fall is finally here! we have TWO littles this year & a whole lot of stuff planned for the season! we finally (after talking about doing it for years) put together a fall bucket list of things we'd like to experience & do, and osborn farm and a real live pumpkin patch are now officially checked off, hoorah! we're off to a great start! next up, bake a homemade pie... anyone have any good recipes to share?! hit me.

^^^lucy thoroughly enjoyed her time as well, in case you wondered ;)


l u c y || h a r p e r

hi, i'm lucy.
i love to be held & always. my mama can't figure out yet if i do or don't like being swaddled... i've decided to keep her guessing. my eyes are blue & though my skin was darker like my daddy's when i was born, it looks to be lightening. i'm one month old! so far, i'm not huge on the passy, but i'm coming around. i make sweet noises & smiles daily. milk is my drink of choice & it is doing this body good... chunk for days if you know what i'm sayin'. i'm usually too tired to wake up and eat at night, so please change my diapy & i'll just see you in the morning. i'm told that it's officially fall... whatever that means, mom swears i'm gonna love it. i'm currently rocking a business in the front, party in the back hairstyle, but like i said... rocking it, and at least i've got some! watching the new girl with mom & dad is my second favorite thing to do. being held by abel is my first favorite. happy monday!


happy birthday mama!

happy birthday to my mom! i'm not going to even attempt formatting a post to express how much i love this lady, because honestly nothing i say would suffice. it's just a feeling. a deep in your heart & soul, never gonna go away, i can't believe you love me like i love my own kids, feeling. she's the greatest encourager, friend & grammy, and i love her to the ends of the earth and back. thank you mom for always being a rock for our family. i love you & appreciate all that you do for us, but more importantly just for being who you are. there's no one like you! happy birthday!!


arrow june.

tomorrow, this nugget turns one. yes, ONE. how have we been lucky enough to spend an entire year with this precious? i truly believe the grant family hit the baby JACKPOT. 
thank you for making me an auntie arrow, for giving abel a cousin & a partner on the swings, for always putting a smile on all of the faces around you & for filling your mama's love tank to the brim each day... we mom's need that. you are a fun haver, a mover & a shaker, a growler & a giggler & i couldn't love you more. happy happy birthday! the world got better once you came into it!


here's to my first month being a mother of two...

so far in my adventures of parenting, there is one thing that i have found to almost ALWAYS be the case… once you get something down, and you're feeling like giving both you and your partner and your child a pat on the back because, HOORAY! you've accomplished this, that or the other. a sleep schedule, a routine of some sort, a milestone, etc. and just as you get ready to do the "go me!" dance… something changes. they start teething & all of the sleeping through the night is out the window, or summer comes along & daylight savings TOTALLY throws your 8:00 bedtime because it still looks like 4pm out & your toddler is like, ummm no. they get really good at eating certain things so you stock up, & then in the same week their tastes change and don't want any part of those things, or you have a baby...

we are coming up on one whole month of having lucy in our lives & i will start by saying that life with TWO babies has been truly wonderful. i've been reminded of so many things that i learned from my first month being a mother all together (HERE) & new things too! some things have been harder, most things have been easier, but all around things have been unfairly blessed. obviously, some parts of our world have been turned upside down & we are taking those things as they come. things like abel probably hasn't gone to bed before 10pm once over the course of this month with lucy, naps have hardly been on time and only occasional, lots of dinners have been had at the coffee table & waking up with 4 in the bed or as a baby sandwich has been a common occurrence, but is honestly the sweetest slice so, you know.

i've been given a new confidence in learning how capable i actually am & how much i can handle on my own, but i'd be lying if i said there haven't been tears & moments of totally overwhelming, what have we done?!, chaos. what has surprised me most though is how much love our hearts are capable of holding. everyone told us they would get bigger, and i believed them, but wow... sooo much bigger. we love lucy so much. she's so sweet & precious, maybe i'm the mom but i think she is stunningly beautiful, she is a little grumbler when she sleeps and eats & it makes us laugh out loud in the middle of the night listening to her. sometimes we call her peeky mcpeekerson because it's just soooo hard waking up, she peeps out at us numerous times before actually being fully awake... that plus the grumbling equals heart eyes for days. abel loves her & wants to hold her always, rub her head & give the maximum daily amount of kisses possible. he also is not shy about letting me know when i should put her down & come with him somewhere or pick him up. he politely tells me by patting her swing or the blankets she normally lays on like 'put that baby down right here mom'. he's one smart cookie, and any worries i had about him feeling like second string went out the window the first time any and all of these things happened. darling as pie i tell ya. our days together are sweet & for the most part there are minimal melt downs from the majority & we just feel good. 

i have kids, KIDS! it's truly still unbelievable to me that i have been blessed this much, first with chris, then abel & now sweet lucy. i couldn't be thanking God enough. i've said it before & i'll say it again... i love these littles with a different kind of love. an unending, no conditions, can't believe i grew you in my belly kind of love that just gets better every day... & i love that.