grams on grams...

...on grams, on grams.
so much on my mind lately... my sister's wedding, my dad more than usual, my birthday + the uneasy feeling i have about it this year (refer to number two on this list), our baby girl + all that comes along with her, my baby shower or sprinkle or whatever it's called for baby number two, moving-maybe?, endless amounts of Tylar's homemade donuts if i had my way... the list goes on. i've found myself to be a bit of a cry baby lately + more indecisive than the regular day, i blame being pregnant with a girl baby... it's the estrogen, allll the estrogen :) it's been a good thing though (the crying, not the indecision) i feel so good after a cry, it's such a release + such a raw + beautiful thing to cry + feel your emotions. 
anyway, other than in my mind, it's been pretty quiet around here. i've gone through two books in 8 days + have tried to be more productive during nap time. i haven't brought my big camera out in like a week, but i'm thankful for my iPhone & it's daily reminders to take photos + document life that way! 
on that note...

from that time my sister got engaged!

yep! my older sister got engaged last week to the love of her life. he picked the perfect ring + his proposal was adorably cute + so THEM! we are so happy for them + couldn't be more thrilled to have tylar as part of our family! hip hip! let the wedding festivities begin!

the best mess.




a b e l   m a d d o x
i'm not sure anyone looks this cute eating a donut. in fact, i'm sure they don't. your little chubby hands + powdered sugar covered face + sweater is my favorite kind of messy.
Y O U are my favorite kind of messy.
i L O V E when your toys are strung out all over the living room or when you've unloaded your bottom drawer across your room for the 18th time that day + i find your sweatpants in the bathroom trash can. i also love sitting down at the doctor's office + looking down at my pants for the first time that day + seeing left over who knows what at your exact height, from where you snack hugged my legs.
rolled up diapers at the foot of our bed, toys in the sheets, passies on my side table...
my favorite kind of mess.
Y O U are my favorite kind of everything.
thanks for being my child + for making me feel like YOUR favorite kind of mess too. i love you.

a happy Easter + a million pictures to go along with it.


i hope you all had a wonderful Easter + start to your week! our Easter was wonderful. i am SO thankful for Christ's sacrifice on the cross + His resurrection so that we could be saved. it's because of that sacrifice that i am able to live every day + be a wife and mother, a sister and friend. it's because of that sacrifice that i am able to have hope in Heaven that i will see my daddy again + it's because of that sacrifice that i am reminded of God's love for me + that there is more ahead of this life here on earth, as wonderful as it may be. 
abel made the day that much more special, as he does with most days. he ate way too much candy, took the best nap ever + was an egg hunting machine as soon as he figured out what it was all about... the candy INSIDE of the eggs. my nana was in town to make 7 layer salad + my mom, as usual, went above + beyond to make sure everyone had a great day AND an easter basket (that makes 11 easter baskets!!). despite us all having that little empty corner in our hearts for my dad, at the end of the day chris and i both just felt so good. it was a long and wonderful day + he is risen indeed.