some grams + some thoughts.

just a few grams to give this blog some life.
lately i haven't been able to blog much. i like this space to be authentic & i feel like i've done a pretty good job of that over time. i am honestly a pretty happy go lucky, look at the bright side kind of person & i think that shows through to this space. i like to keep this place light. i don't share every single disappointment, sadness or problem that i have here. of course there is the occasional rant & also i write from my heart & get sappy sometimes too, but for the most part, i like to keep those parts of our life private. since losing my dad, i have found myself taking less pictures and blogging even less than that. i don't like it at all. those are such huge parts of me, but for right now they are just on the back burner. i want this place to stay real and stay positive, and i'm not saying i'm a crying, depressed mess all day every day, but just at this particular season in my life, writing about the little bits & pieces of my day & what we did over the weekend just doesn't feel authentic, because my heart is still in so many pieces.
i desperately want to get back here, get back to normal life, whatever that means. but while i try and navigate through days with our busy, busy, busy little guy & all of my different feelings, this space will probably remain quiet for a little while longer. it's SO important to me to continue documenting abel's life & ours. this tiny corner of the internet has given me such a huge huge outlet for that & has seriously been my happy place. i love it here & want to remember all of the wonderful things throughout our life. the sad parts will forever be in my heart though, a place that i will never forget them, and that's where i'd like to keep them. not here. so thank you for continuing to check in & see if we still exist :) & please stick around while i gather up the bits & pieces of myself that still feel like they are everywhere. i hope to be back in this place with my whole heart very very soon. xoxo

4 comments

margaret said...

We miss you but totally understand where you're coming from friend. Blogs are tough things to navigate when you've got so much going on inside. Love and hugs to you today xoxo

Anonymous said...

I love that you keep your blog authentic. I remember when I lost my grampa (who I was very, very close to), life just seemed foggy. It was rough. I can understand why you'd need space while dealing with this. Hang in there. It does get better with time - at least it did for me. Many prayers and thoughts to you and your family.

Brittany britysb@gmail.com

Hillary Salvaggione said...

love you margaret<3 miss you most!

Hillary Salvaggione said...

thank you brittany :) i really appreciate your kindness and prayers! happy valentines day to you!