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Abel is so special. I've truly never met another child like him. he's kind and gentle, thoughtful and funny. he's wild & willful & naughty too... but as he gets older, all of his very special qualities that I love so much, stand out more and more and it's so awesome to watch unfold and think to myself, "that's my kid! how'd I get so lucky?!" he's the very best & at any given time can be heard telling me I'm pretty, or saying that he loves someone "so much" ...and always delivered in his sweet Abel voice. for Christmas he doesn't want any part of Santa, "no Santa, just mama give me presents" and when asked what he'd like, his response is either "presents red & green (with books inside)" or "a big snoopy & lights on my tree"... so simple, so sweet... 

he loves cookies, and almost any time he's given one, exclaims in the most hysterical voice that I wish I could describe, but an impression is really the only way to get it across... "I love cookiessss, they're my favoritttte"

he and Lucy both... frosty FANATICS. breakfast, lunch and dinner it's frosty the snowman. I couldn't count the number of times I've drawn frosty for them, complete with two eyes made outta coal, a button nose, corncob pipe, scarf, magic hat with flower, three buttons, a broomstick in HIM hand, and occasionally feet... just depends on the day. if I short cut and leave any of these features out, Abel will be the first and only one to let me know. also, the frosty mix tape I could make with the number of videos of them singing and dancing along with these pictures in their hands is dying to be put together. maybe next year ;)

miss miss tree, amen.

alllll the fings (things) :)

eat it alllll up in my tummy (with arms stretched making a big circle gesture)

he's currently asleep next to me with his hand draped around me in a snuggle...

does it get better than this?! 
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on this night two years ago...

on this night, two years ago, I remember being afraid to go to sleep, for fear that when I woke I would receive news that my dad had passed in the night. I didn't know the heartbreak I'd experience the following day... 

No, I hadn't missed his last moments while sleeping, an act that felt so selfish in the midst of it all. Instead, God allowed me to be by his side when he took his final breaths... & I, along with the members of my family wept beside him as his spirit left him. 

I was and am forever changed. Changed in ways I didn't expect, changed in ways I wish I weren't, and though few, changed in ways I'm thankful for. 

"Missing" my dad is an understatement. I am still, two years later, utterly heartbroken over him. It doesn't make sense and it doesn't seem fair, and I'm still mad about it. 

What I AM thankful for is my family that is still here with me, my sweet kiddos that light my world every day, my loving loving husband who can hug away my hurt & who's shoulder can soak up my ugly crying tears, and for a God who loves me through my anger & brokenness. I somehow still, even after what felt like betrayal, when my deepest prayer was not answered, have faith in Him and His unconditional love for me. I pray anyway, I believe He will answer prayers and protect my family and be with us always, I love Him. 

So no, I don't have my dad, my earthly father, the one who helped raise me and took care of me when I was sick, the funny one, who's voice and walk and hands and hugs and silly faces I'll never EVER forget. my dad, who's wisdom was captivating and who's heart was full for his family. He is gone, a memory now. He is with angels, praising my heavenly father, who like my dad (but even more so) loves me endlessly, comforts me, and cares for me always and unconditionally. He will never leave me, and I'm thankful for that.



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our time at the tiny tot trick or treat!


hello! happy monday, and november too! halloween is done + gone over here, and the christmas tunes are in full swing! it's taking all i've got not to put up our tree, but i'm hoping + praying that our little house can be finished by christmas and that i will be putting it up in that space, so it's helping stall me! plus, i want a real tree this year, don't they just smell so good?! i couldn't let too much time pass before i got this post up from our time at the tiny tot trick or treat! what a great way to trick or treat! all of the cute shops in old town come together + give out candy, and it was such a fun and safe way to take the kids out :) we loved it, and will definitely do it again in the years to come. 
abel was "super abel", and everyone kept calling him the flash... he had no clue what they were talking about, as he was just super abel to him, and to me too! he wanted red, and this is what we found! he wore it for both the week leading up to, and following halloween... best $20 i've ever spent. it's now finally been peeled from his body + washed, and it makes me so happy that it makes him so happy. lucy was a little fairy, and i can't believe she's as old as she is. she is such a little, big girl. little in size, and so much more advanced than you know in the brain department. basically 1 going on 3. i love them both so stinkin' much, i don't even have the words.
family is the very best + holidays are that much sweeter with them around! now on to thanksgiving, and my very favorite, christmas eve! xoxo

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can it really be end of october?!
nooooo! october is one of my very favorite months everrrrr. it's so beautiful + the earth screams with color. pumpkins are heart happy + my kids and husband in a pumpkin patch are so darn swoon worthy. yellow, orange, red...  i love you october.
next reason for loving october + the only thing that keeps me from crying real tears when it ends? christmas. i know, i know, thanksgiving and what not, and i'm all about the continued pumpkin, crunchy leaves, sweater weather, and feast... but at our house the christmas music officially starts in november (when i haven't already started playing it in october ;)) and that is pure joy! i hope you enjoy your last few days of this glorious month as much as we intend to! + now for a few photos...

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