all i want is snow, warm apple cider, a blanket fort && a christmas movie.
today, the grinch seems fitting. kinda coincides with my current mood.
haaaaate to be a downer, but blah.
husband and i's future is once again up in the air.
this can be SO frustrating.
where will we be in 5 months, where will we be in 2 months?!
can we commit to this... or will we end up breaking promises because we have to move?
our bills are this much... we make this much... what about gas & groceries?
i usually try and see the upside to every sitch, and i can see the upside at this moment too... even though money is tight, we ARE provided with enough to pay all of our bills. even though we are unfortunately having to use our credit cards some... we are BLESSED to have them. even though we don't know where we are going to be in the next few months... we HAVE A HOME!
we are blessed in SO many ways, and we are grateful.
I once heard that we should expect God to bless us, even when we don't deserve it. But we better rejoice like crazy when He does, because He doesn't have to!!
"Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus." 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
This is one of my FAVORITE verses. I am SO thankful that God is providing in all the ways that He is. I wish I was SO strong that I would NEVER worry. But I'm not.
I am a soft soul, I'm emotional, I'm a planner, I tend to worry.
But I'm also faithful.
I know that God will bring us through any&every thing.
What else do we NEED? Our bills are paid, we have a roof over our head, we have a great family, sweet pets, we live in a beautiful place, have great friends, both have fun jobs, we have LOVE in relationships and SO much more.
There is a HUGE difference between WANT and NEED.
I myself am really working on keeping the two separate & using them correctly.
I WANT to shop & travel & buy Halloween decorations. I WANT to go to the movies & dinner & concerts. I don't NEED those things.
I NEED food & shelter, and more importantly I NEED Jesus Christ.
I NEED Him more now than ever.
I think times of worry are placed before us so that we can NEED Him more.
Without struggle, stress, worry, etc. why would we NEED Jesus?
If everything was easy... Faith wouldn't be put to use.
So for this lesson I am thankful.
This chapter of life, whether it be a few days, weeks, or months... hopefully not years :)... is meant to strengthen me. Strengthen us as a couple. Strengthen us as His children.
I am thankful.
Even in writing this I am getting out of my funk.
Do I still want to hibernate today? Yea, kinda do...
Snow, snuggling, blanket forts, & movies sounds reeeeeally ideal right now.
To not worry for a few hours & just be lost.
Since that is not fitting to my schedule today... How bout I try FAITH.
who would have thought?
For the rest of this day I will practice FAITH && PATIENCE.
God will provide. God ALWAYS provides.
Our path will be revealed in His timing.
I am THANKFUL.
I am LOVED.
I am FAITHFUL.